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20 - Video
Sep. 2nd, 2013 11:01 pm[Jean is mostly healed up, by now. She still sits with an awkward rigidity, and her bruises haven't entirely faded, but she
Hey, so. I wanted to tell everyone instead of just up and disappearing, so... [A slight, slow shrug.]
I think I need some time at home. I know it hasn't been all that long since I got back, but...it feels like it has. [A faint, wry smile, there and gone.]
I think...I think having a bit more experience under my belt can only help, you know? Living my life, in my world, and... [She shakes her head.]
I'm coming back. I'll probably be different, but I'll never stop thinking about this place. About - about the people I'm leaving behind. [But she has people at home, too, people who need her just as much.]
[Private to friends and family.]
I love you.
[Private to Anya]
I was thinking - we could do some sort of project, together. Like...half of a set. I sew at home, and you sew here, and when I come back... [She bites her lip.] Does that sound silly?
[Private to Morgana]
I... [Her gaze falls. This is the second time, and she feels just as guilty.] I wish I could take you with me.
[Private to Iris]
[She looks uncertain, now. She likes Iris, but she doesn't know her, not really.
But this is important.]
I wanted - I just wanted to tell you it's not your fault.
Hey, so. I wanted to tell everyone instead of just up and disappearing, so... [A slight, slow shrug.]
I think I need some time at home. I know it hasn't been all that long since I got back, but...it feels like it has. [A faint, wry smile, there and gone.]
I think...I think having a bit more experience under my belt can only help, you know? Living my life, in my world, and... [She shakes her head.]
I'm coming back. I'll probably be different, but I'll never stop thinking about this place. About - about the people I'm leaving behind. [But she has people at home, too, people who need her just as much.]
[Private to friends and family.]
I love you.
[Private to Anya]
I was thinking - we could do some sort of project, together. Like...half of a set. I sew at home, and you sew here, and when I come back... [She bites her lip.] Does that sound silly?
[Private to Morgana]
I... [Her gaze falls. This is the second time, and she feels just as guilty.] I wish I could take you with me.
[Private to Iris]
[She looks uncertain, now. She likes Iris, but she doesn't know her, not really.
But this is important.]
I wanted - I just wanted to tell you it's not your fault.
19 - Video
Jul. 20th, 2013 10:19 am[Private to David, Arkin and Marsh, separately]
I know that wasn't us, but...I wanted to know how you were doing.
[Private to Ben]
How are you?
[Private to Alex]
How d'you feel about another sparring match?
[Spam - OTA]
[Not thinking about it has become a survival tactic on the barge.
It's easier, this time, as the memories fade like forgotten photographs. But she still remembers being lost and lonely, being horrified and trapped.
She's thrown herself back into life on the Barge as much as she can, chasing away the past with the present, even as her bones ache with it. At least she can walk around.
That's what she's doing now, gingerly stretching her legs on the deck as she finishes sending her messages.]
[Spam - For Charles]
[She can only Not Think About Things for so long, though. Her first and best coping method was always doing something. Sparring with Alex helped, but she didn't want to push herself too far physically, not yet. So she went to the kitchens, and she did something challenging.
There's a bit of smoke, and a bit of cursing, and they don't come out nearly as good as Anya's, but they taste pretty good. Eventually, she has a decent-sized tray of thumbprint cookies, and she lets them cool before sliding them into a container.
Then she heads up to Charles' room, letting the cookies float in front of her. She even uses them to knock on the door.]
I know that wasn't us, but...I wanted to know how you were doing.
[Private to Ben]
How are you?
[Private to Alex]
How d'you feel about another sparring match?
[Spam - OTA]
[Not thinking about it has become a survival tactic on the barge.
It's easier, this time, as the memories fade like forgotten photographs. But she still remembers being lost and lonely, being horrified and trapped.
She's thrown herself back into life on the Barge as much as she can, chasing away the past with the present, even as her bones ache with it. At least she can walk around.
That's what she's doing now, gingerly stretching her legs on the deck as she finishes sending her messages.]
[Spam - For Charles]
[She can only Not Think About Things for so long, though. Her first and best coping method was always doing something. Sparring with Alex helped, but she didn't want to push herself too far physically, not yet. So she went to the kitchens, and she did something challenging.
There's a bit of smoke, and a bit of cursing, and they don't come out nearly as good as Anya's, but they taste pretty good. Eventually, she has a decent-sized tray of thumbprint cookies, and she lets them cool before sliding them into a container.
Then she heads up to Charles' room, letting the cookies float in front of her. She even uses them to knock on the door.]
18 - Video
Jul. 4th, 2013 11:23 am[Jean was working out when the idea struck her, so that's what she's dressed for; bright yellow headband, hair tied back, loose black sweats. She's in a corner of the gym, sitting cross-legged on the air.
She wipes the sweat from her forehead before grinning at the camera.]
So, I was wondering - was there every any headway on training groups, or sports?
[Spam]
[Eventually, Jean goes back to her workout. At the moment, she's honing her mind rather than her muscles, carefully lifting two fifty pound weights up and down.]
She wipes the sweat from her forehead before grinning at the camera.]
So, I was wondering - was there every any headway on training groups, or sports?
[Spam]
[Eventually, Jean goes back to her workout. At the moment, she's honing her mind rather than her muscles, carefully lifting two fifty pound weights up and down.]
17 - Video
Jun. 16th, 2013 05:36 pm[Some might not recognise the woman on the network. Her face is obscured by a flaring gold mask. She's wearing a green skirt, complete with a gold belt and matching gloves. Her composure, too, is different; she holds herself with a quiet confidence.
Her voice, though, is as warm as it's always been.]
Hey, Barge.
[Jean pulls the mask from her face, revealing an older, wearier gaze.]
How long was I gone? What did I miss?
[Private to X-People]
[Her smile falters, a little, as she leans forward.]
Please tell me you're all okay.
[Filter to Bruce Wayne]
[A cheerful wave.] Hey! How are you? I've learned a ton, we should spar in the CES. [And catch up, but that's what 'spar' means.]
[Private to Morgana]
[Jean suddenly looks younger; bashful and uncertain.]
I got you those books. And - um, I didn't know your size, exactly, but...
Her voice, though, is as warm as it's always been.]
Hey, Barge.
[Jean pulls the mask from her face, revealing an older, wearier gaze.]
How long was I gone? What did I miss?
[Private to X-People]
[Her smile falters, a little, as she leans forward.]
Please tell me you're all okay.
[Filter to Bruce Wayne]
[A cheerful wave.] Hey! How are you? I've learned a ton, we should spar in the CES. [And catch up, but that's what 'spar' means.]
[Private to Morgana]
[Jean suddenly looks younger; bashful and uncertain.]
I got you those books. And - um, I didn't know your size, exactly, but...
16 - Video
Jun. 2nd, 2013 02:44 pm[Jean's smile is an odd blend of pride and uncertainty.]
So - Jason graduated. He's going home. [Her voice is warm and fond and a little bit awed; not that he could do it, but that she could help. That he didn't disappear before he made it through.]
That means...well, I need to go home myself, for a while. I need to...see how my deal worked.
[Jean lets out a breath.]
And honestly, I could use a break. I'm not sure how long, but - I will be coming back. I promise you that.
[Private to Charles, Erik and Alex]
The X-Men at home are my family, but...so are you. [It's the first time she's said it out loud, and her voice wavers a little bit.] I'll be back, and - I love you, okay?
If you want to - my door's open.
[Private to Morgana]
I told you I wouldn't leave you and I meant it.
So - Jason graduated. He's going home. [Her voice is warm and fond and a little bit awed; not that he could do it, but that she could help. That he didn't disappear before he made it through.]
That means...well, I need to go home myself, for a while. I need to...see how my deal worked.
[Jean lets out a breath.]
And honestly, I could use a break. I'm not sure how long, but - I will be coming back. I promise you that.
[Private to Charles, Erik and Alex]
The X-Men at home are my family, but...so are you. [It's the first time she's said it out loud, and her voice wavers a little bit.] I'll be back, and - I love you, okay?
If you want to - my door's open.
[Private to Morgana]
I told you I wouldn't leave you and I meant it.
15 - Video
Apr. 25th, 2013 11:52 am[Jean's in her work out clothes - a faded blue tank and matching sweatpants. Her hair is tied back in a low pony tail. Her smile is hopeful.]
So, when something like this happens, I like to work out. Stretching, training, wailing on some poor innocent punching bags. I know I'm not the only one. And sometimes it's better to do it alone, but sometimes...it helps to have people around.
I was wondering - would anyone be interested in a sort of training group? We could work out together, teach each other, encourage each other.
Inmates should probably get permission, if you have Wardens, but you won't be treated differently as long as I have a say in it.
( Private to Friends )
( Private to Jason )
So, when something like this happens, I like to work out. Stretching, training, wailing on some poor innocent punching bags. I know I'm not the only one. And sometimes it's better to do it alone, but sometimes...it helps to have people around.
I was wondering - would anyone be interested in a sort of training group? We could work out together, teach each other, encourage each other.
Inmates should probably get permission, if you have Wardens, but you won't be treated differently as long as I have a say in it.
( Private to Friends )
( Private to Jason )
14 - Video
Apr. 15th, 2013 09:00 am[Private to Bruce]
...Can I talk to you?
[Private to Jason]
[Her smile is slightly nervous, but very warm.]
Hey, Jason. I'm Jean - I talked to you when you woke up.
...Can I talk to you?
[Private to Jason]
[Her smile is slightly nervous, but very warm.]
Hey, Jason. I'm Jean - I talked to you when you woke up.
13 - Video
Mar. 31st, 2013 07:48 pm[Jean's broadcasting, again. She's still in costume, stationed in front of the infirmary.]
I'm sure everyone knows who took over the ship, by now.
I'm not going to say you shouldn't be angry. I'm angry. [And it shows, for a moment; in the heat of her eyes, the curl of her mouth. Then it's gone.] I'm not going to tell anyone not to scream at her.
But I'm going to tell you that killing her won't do a damn thing. Death doesn't - it doesn't solve anything. [Her voice is tight, now, with the slightest tremor.] Death is horror and pain and losing yourself in the dark and no one has the right.
[A deep, calming breath.]
My point is - she's an inmate now. And if we say that's not enough. If we say she doesn't deserve a chance at redemption. If we say that, just because this time we were the victims?
Then we're all just hypocrites.
I'm sure everyone knows who took over the ship, by now.
I'm not going to say you shouldn't be angry. I'm angry. [And it shows, for a moment; in the heat of her eyes, the curl of her mouth. Then it's gone.] I'm not going to tell anyone not to scream at her.
But I'm going to tell you that killing her won't do a damn thing. Death doesn't - it doesn't solve anything. [Her voice is tight, now, with the slightest tremor.] Death is horror and pain and losing yourself in the dark and no one has the right.
[A deep, calming breath.]
My point is - she's an inmate now. And if we say that's not enough. If we say she doesn't deserve a chance at redemption. If we say that, just because this time we were the victims?
Then we're all just hypocrites.
12 - Video
Mar. 29th, 2013 09:05 am[Jean's in costume again, but the mask is off for now, revealing a calm, determined expression. Her voice is gentle and firm.]
Hey.
I know this is hard for everyone - especially Inmates, whether it's new for you or not. I just want you to know you're not alone in this. Even if this is the real Admiral, which I really doubt, they have no right to treat you this way and it's going to be fixed.
[Jean leans forward, tone intent.] We're going to get through this. All of us.
[And she settles back, voice softening.] If you need anything, just ask. I'll try.
[Filtered to Friends]
Is everyone okay? Can I do anything?
Hey.
I know this is hard for everyone - especially Inmates, whether it's new for you or not. I just want you to know you're not alone in this. Even if this is the real Admiral, which I really doubt, they have no right to treat you this way and it's going to be fixed.
[Jean leans forward, tone intent.] We're going to get through this. All of us.
[And she settles back, voice softening.] If you need anything, just ask. I'll try.
[Filtered to Friends]
Is everyone okay? Can I do anything?
11 - Video
Feb. 24th, 2013 08:15 pm((Backdated to Day 2.))
[Jean starts off with a warm, confident smile. She's wearing her suit - tight, black and gold body armor covering her from toes to fingertips.]
Hey, guys. This is Jean - or Marvel Girl. [It's the first time she's used that name, on the Barge, and it feels sort of strange on her tongue.]
If anyone needs help getting to the infirmary, or getting away from someone else, let me know. I'll be patrolling the hallways.
[Jean starts off with a warm, confident smile. She's wearing her suit - tight, black and gold body armor covering her from toes to fingertips.]
Hey, guys. This is Jean - or Marvel Girl. [It's the first time she's used that name, on the Barge, and it feels sort of strange on her tongue.]
If anyone needs help getting to the infirmary, or getting away from someone else, let me know. I'll be patrolling the hallways.
10 - Video
Feb. 1st, 2013 07:35 pm[Jean stares into the camera, grimly pensive. She's sitting on her new bed, legs tangled in the flower print sheets.]
This all reminds me of when I was a kid. Hearing everyone's secrets, I mean.
It's not a secret here that I can move things with my mind. That still weirds me out, because it'd be really dangerous for anyone to know that in my world.
But that wasn't my first power. When I was ten, I lost my best friend, and when she died - our minds linked. I tried to hold on to her, to keep her from slipping away.
[Jean's arms wrap around herself.]
I almost died with her. I'm still not sure how I didn't, just - there was this hot golden light, pulling me out of the dark. And when I woke up Annie was gone and the noise wouldn't stop.
[She closes her eyes, for a moment.]
I was dying and I didn't care.
[A faint smile.]
But Xavier changed that. My Xavier - he's different than the one here, but I love them in different ways. He made me want to live again. And he sealed the power away, until I was ready to use it.
I think I am now, I want to be, but I'm scared. And I...I guess a part of me resents it. Because what good is it, if it couldn't save her?
[Her voice turns small.]
What good am I?
This all reminds me of when I was a kid. Hearing everyone's secrets, I mean.
It's not a secret here that I can move things with my mind. That still weirds me out, because it'd be really dangerous for anyone to know that in my world.
But that wasn't my first power. When I was ten, I lost my best friend, and when she died - our minds linked. I tried to hold on to her, to keep her from slipping away.
[Jean's arms wrap around herself.]
I almost died with her. I'm still not sure how I didn't, just - there was this hot golden light, pulling me out of the dark. And when I woke up Annie was gone and the noise wouldn't stop.
[She closes her eyes, for a moment.]
I was dying and I didn't care.
[A faint smile.]
But Xavier changed that. My Xavier - he's different than the one here, but I love them in different ways. He made me want to live again. And he sealed the power away, until I was ready to use it.
I think I am now, I want to be, but I'm scared. And I...I guess a part of me resents it. Because what good is it, if it couldn't save her?
[Her voice turns small.]
What good am I?
[Jean stares into the camera, gnawing at her lip. Her face is drawn, her eyes red.]
I...um. I know I'm not the only one who got hit by - whatever that was in the dining hall. If anyone needs help let me know. And I...
[She hesitates, clearly uncertain, before moving the camera, and showing the utter devastation of her room.]
I could use a little help cleaning this up.
I...um. I know I'm not the only one who got hit by - whatever that was in the dining hall. If anyone needs help let me know. And I...
[She hesitates, clearly uncertain, before moving the camera, and showing the utter devastation of her room.]
I could use a little help cleaning this up.
[Jean doesn't speak straight away. She starts, a few times, but the words die on her lips and her gaze falls to the hands twisting in her lap.
Finally, she speaks, soft and solemn.]
I was wondering if - anyone knew anything about the breaches, or had any theories. If the Admiral just created these people, these...families out of thin air, or...if they really exist, somewhere. If... [She swallows hard.] If they're different versions of the people we know.
Finally, she speaks, soft and solemn.]
I was wondering if - anyone knew anything about the breaches, or had any theories. If the Admiral just created these people, these...families out of thin air, or...if they really exist, somewhere. If... [She swallows hard.] If they're different versions of the people we know.
[Jean's voice is quiet, expression solemn.]
I just wanted everyone to know that Admiral Xen is gone.
[All the same, she manages a faint smile.]
And - thank you, everyone, for my gifts.
[Private to Erik]
[Jean worries at her lip, staring at the screen with a starkly vulnerable expression.]
Erik, I -
It's -
Thank you.
I just wanted everyone to know that Admiral Xen is gone.
[All the same, she manages a faint smile.]
And - thank you, everyone, for my gifts.
[Private to Erik]
[Jean worries at her lip, staring at the screen with a starkly vulnerable expression.]
Erik, I -
It's -
Thank you.
[Jean is smiling. It's a friendly enough expression, but it's markedly weary. She hasn't been sleeping well, these past few nights.]
I'm looking for some sparring partners. The CTS is great, it reminds me home, but I miss training with other people.
[She stretches her arms over her head, threading her fingers together.]
I've been training for two years in hand to hand combat. I can also move things with my mind.
[Private to Erik]
[Her smile falters as her arms fall.]
I, um - I was wondering how you were doing.
I'm looking for some sparring partners. The CTS is great, it reminds me home, but I miss training with other people.
[She stretches her arms over her head, threading her fingers together.]
I've been training for two years in hand to hand combat. I can also move things with my mind.
[Private to Erik]
[Her smile falters as her arms fall.]
I, um - I was wondering how you were doing.
[Jean starts with an assuring smile, and a little wave.]
Hi there. I know a lot of people are getting weird transmissions. They're from the Barge. We're an interdimensional space ship, so - I guess that means we can transmit to anywhere. Or any when.
I don't know when it'll be fixed, so... [A wry grin.] Enjoy the company?
[She bites her lip for a moment.]
I know this might be a long shot, but - Scott? Warren? Hank? Bobby?
...Professor? Wanda? [They're here, sort of, and she's come to think of them as hers, but - she misses the ones from her world, too.]
((Ready for any and all Fourth Wall shenanigans!))
Hi there. I know a lot of people are getting weird transmissions. They're from the Barge. We're an interdimensional space ship, so - I guess that means we can transmit to anywhere. Or any when.
I don't know when it'll be fixed, so... [A wry grin.] Enjoy the company?
[She bites her lip for a moment.]
I know this might be a long shot, but - Scott? Warren? Hank? Bobby?
...Professor? Wanda? [They're here, sort of, and she's come to think of them as hers, but - she misses the ones from her world, too.]
((Ready for any and all Fourth Wall shenanigans!))
[After some strategic pecking, Jean finally manages to start a video transmission.]
If anyone's found themselves trapped somewhere, and you're on the smaller side, let me know. I can grab other things for you, too, if you need them.
Has this ever happened before?
[Xen]
How are you doing?
((Jean can be understood by everyone.))
If anyone's found themselves trapped somewhere, and you're on the smaller side, let me know. I can grab other things for you, too, if you need them.
Has this ever happened before?
[Xen]
How are you doing?
((Jean can be understood by everyone.))
[Jean's sitting up in her bed in the infirmary. It's clear she's been battered near breaking, but she's healing, and she looks well-rested.
Her smile is strained but sincere, voice weak but insistent.]
I wanted to thank everyone who tried to rescue the people who were caught, and the people who worked on the ship.
[Filtered to Arkady]
[Sheer emotion rises her voice.] Thank you.
Are you doing okay?
[Filtered to Erik]
[And now it's soft with concern.]
How are you doing?
[Filtered to Xen]
[Her smile is a bit rueful, now.]
You've finally got a Warden.
Her smile is strained but sincere, voice weak but insistent.]
I wanted to thank everyone who tried to rescue the people who were caught, and the people who worked on the ship.
[Filtered to Arkady]
[Sheer emotion rises her voice.] Thank you.
Are you doing okay?
[Filtered to Erik]
[And now it's soft with concern.]
How are you doing?
[Filtered to Xen]
[Her smile is a bit rueful, now.]
You've finally got a Warden.
[Private to the Admiral]
[Jean's gaze is carefully even, her voice steady and strong. She's clearly been practising.]
Admiral? I'd like to ask a few questions.
First, I'd like to know more about the system here. Are you accountable to anyone else? Is there any process in place to prevent or correct possible errors?
Second, is there any way for inmates to appeal their term here?
Third - I realise I'm not Daro'Xen's Warden, but she has no one else to speak for her. I'd like to know why she's been taken as an Inmate.
[Warden Filter]
I'd like to know everyone's position on Inmates having their abilities suppressed.
[Public]
[A bit later on, here is a distinctly irritated Jean, holding a gingerbread Barge.]
I bet the Admiral thinks he's cute, doesn't he.
[Jean's gaze is carefully even, her voice steady and strong. She's clearly been practising.]
Admiral? I'd like to ask a few questions.
First, I'd like to know more about the system here. Are you accountable to anyone else? Is there any process in place to prevent or correct possible errors?
Second, is there any way for inmates to appeal their term here?
Third - I realise I'm not Daro'Xen's Warden, but she has no one else to speak for her. I'd like to know why she's been taken as an Inmate.
[Warden Filter]
I'd like to know everyone's position on Inmates having their abilities suppressed.
[Public]
[A bit later on, here is a distinctly irritated Jean, holding a gingerbread Barge.]
I bet the Admiral thinks he's cute, doesn't he.
